My tendency towards invincibility.

Yesterday was a really hard day…Haven’t had a day this hard in years…

Somethings I learned through being real:

1. I have a long history of assuming I’m right.
Whether it’s the small decisions, the big decisions or not my decisions at all. I trust my own judgement and I have been let down enough times to be wary of trusting others. ( see self-assurance in my top 5 strengths…Unharnessed strengths can be weaknesses)

2. On the Flip-side: Not trusting others is not an option.
I may not understand or I may not agree, but either way, some decisions are not mine to make. I need to learn that the decisions of others have validity, even if they aren’t decisions I make. Trust is not negotiable, however. It’s a necessity for team building.

3. I’m still not sure how to not be in charge.
Every job I’ve ever been in, I’ve worked my way up to running the show. It feels natural to me. Whether it’s running the art department and print shop or running my own business, or planting new businesses, I like taking the lead. It’s a huge struggle for me when the buck doesn’t stop with me.

4. Bottom Line: I care far too much about my own control, I care far too little about your ideas.
I need to learn how to “play well with others.”

Sometimes you need to be broken. Though, I tend to feel I’m invincible, I know that growth happens more in my brokenness than in my impenetrability.